What Am I Doing

It's like 12.08 am (took me 6 tries to type those words, kept on mispelling) and I'm up when I know I'd have another long day tomorrow.

I'm in my room on my sister's laptop since it works faster than my Toshiba, and out of the back window hyper happy Tamil music is playing from the mamak. It's times like these when I feel at ease, serene (yes with the whole Tamil music thing) when the night air is still and the only voice I hear is the one that belongs to me, talking to me, inside of me. Do I sound insane or what haha.

TO whoever who reads this post, I'm sorry if I've been cutting calls, MSNs, SMS, whatever communication short with the excuse 'I'm busy'. Work has been eating up a chunk of life, actually almost the whole chunk of my life and I hear many a wise man's faint echo 'Work, Life Balance.. GO slow .. DOn't burn'.

But how leh... when stuff keeps on streaming in ?

I'm in a reflective mood when I get home, now when I sneak some precious time to blog. What am I doing? Am I doing the right thing? Is it really work hard while you're young or is it Be smart and screw it while you can cos life's short. I really don't know. But you know how they tell you to trust your gut instinct? That small little voice inside of you? Right now the voice says things are not really all right for me. BUT then I have more than one voice. In the morning another voice says C'mon, this is it. This is life. We're going to seize the day. So which voice is right ah?

I hear the echoes of plastic plates being stacked in the back lane by the washer women of the mamak. I hear even more Tamil music going a few decibels louder than before... or it's just another singer who has a shriller voice, I'm not too sure. I hear the tapping on my keyboard. It's times like this when I feel serene after a hectic day :)